i dunno wad 2 put as my title for my blog. lol

Monday, May 30, 2005

hmmm..gonna do 100m and long jump for natz..hmmm..was damn surprised when i found out tt i was gonna do long jump..nv did long jump ever b4..yupyup. haiz..the track teacher said tt the coach said i cld do long jump..so..hmmm. rite. trngs gonna be every mon..tues and fri..930 to 1130..sighs..gotta go back school for dnt oso..sigh. how i wish there were juz a lil more time..haiz. or maybe even a longer day..more than 24hrs..more time 2 do everythin..yupyup. haha..

had chi o's 2day..juz hope i can get a c6 la..started studyin only bout 2 days ago..sick the previous few days..cldnt really study..so ya..shld i redo if i dun do well?? i dunno..shall see how..yup. the last few days ive been listenin alot 2 howie day's collide..i dunno y..until i kinda memorised the song alrd..hmmm..maybe IF i join sg idol..shall sing tt song..hahahaha..if i ever join..or maybe 40 kinds of sadness by ryan caprera..actually..got kinda a few songs i can sing la..ahahaha..LOL.

the next few days gotta go back 2 school..sighs..lessons..got dnt in the afternoon oso..sian..now my hols like no hols like that..lessons..trngs..dnt..sighs..

Sunday, May 29, 2005

seems like the past has won..it still lives in my mind..

everytime i try to forget..it won't leave..

wad m i to do?

y do i keep lookin at the pics and neos we took?

y i do i still think of u?

~~y do i miss u??~~

sighs.

o level chi tmr..hope can at least get a b4..i hope..haha..gonna hardcore now till tmr!!

hope i can dun ever think bout the past again.

Friday, May 27, 2005

im feeling so damn sick..

monday chi o's..how??haiz..

im screwed.

Wednesday, May 25, 2005

fuck

damn high fever..

39 degrees..

there goes my medals 4 games day tmr..

not goin school tmr oso.

sighs.

Tuesday, May 24, 2005

trng in the morn..ferg and mark went oso..did a few sprints..then after tt went 2 st wilfred's 2 play soccer with 4e1..we won 4-3..i scored 1..syafiq scored 2 and eddie the other one..then went 2 ps 2 eat @ mos..then went 2 play pool with eld and tim..then went 2 the scgs bazaar..complete waste of time..then came hm..super tired..throat feeling damn bad oso..gonna hav dinner alrd..

Friday, May 20, 2005

Time to grow - Lemar

Last night I tried but I couldn't sleep

Thoughts of you were in my head

I was lonely and I needed you next to me

Life is harder since you left

I never meant to do you wrong

And now all is said and done

I hope you won't be gone too long/ No

[Chorus]

Where do I go

What do I do

I can't deny I still feel something

And girl, I wish you could say you feel the same

You've broken the bond

I gotta move on

But how do I end this lonely feeling?

You've gone, I'm here, alone

I guess it's time to grow

I try to speak, but my words never catch the air

Like you never knew I was there

Take me back to the days when you really cared

Can we make love re-appear?

I can't go on the roads too long

And now all is said and done

I can't go forward if my heart's still where i'm coming from

[Chorus]

Crying time is over

I know I can't control her feelings

If she won't return, then I guess I'll be a man

and move on

Time to grow / And move on

Make life better than it was before

Time to grow and move on

Make love better than I did before [repeat]

Though you've gone / And I'm here, alone

I guess it's time to grow

damn slack 2day in school..only did a physics mindmap and dnt only..haha..played tennis with weiwen's federer racket..haha..made damn nice shots..=P feel damn gd usin his racket..hahaha..yup. then on the way home..this girl in yellow pointed to weiwen when he left..haha..yellow..haha..

Thursday, May 19, 2005

1 week more!!! games day..track meet..100m and 200m and 4 by 100m relay..

i wanna run run run run run run run run run run run run run run run!!!!!

sprint until i drop dead..hahaha.

sighs. im gonna lose damn badly. sadly.

haha.

i juz wan my medal yup. =P

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

there's this girl i once knew from my old estate..my sister's fren's sister..we have never talked 2 each other 4 who knows how long..shld be since i shifted out from the old estate..since pri 5..yup. so long ago..had damn fun times playin with her..yup. miss those days. we could juz play the whole day and not go home..haha..lol. had kinda gd impression of her then.

recently i saw their family again..didnt know it was them at first..saw her..found her kinda familiar..then saw her sister and father then was sure it was her alrd. yup. sighs. i wanna find her..though it has been so long..but somehow she still remained in me..even though i didnt even think of her till now..sighs. i've been tryin to find her. but sighs.

is wad im feeling now called love or is it juz a feeling that will be gone soon? sighs.

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guess the last few days have been kinda alrite to get thru..even after wad happened..have been gettin flashbacks..juz keep appearing for no reason..sighs. shldnt try 2 think of the past too much..but they will stay as some of the gd memories of a bull shit life of a loser..sighs. a loser who cant even do gd things to the girl he loved and make her feel loved. sighs. ahhh. 4get it la..shldnt think too much but juz get on with life. achieve the goals i wanna achieve. yup. only then might i feel satisfied with wad im doin in my life. sighs.

Saturday, May 14, 2005

010105 - 140505

0035 - 1320 hrs

its all over. the end.

~~beneliz~~

im only gonna leave when u tell me in the face.

i juz wanna hear it from u straight.

only then will i leave.

do i still mean anythin to u at all?

y make me feel like this?

juz tell it to me straight then.

it will all be so much more easier.

for u and for me.

and that other person.

Friday, May 13, 2005

this is it. it could all end in 1 hour time. sighs.

really dunno wads gonna happen at the end of it.

sighs.

im so fucking confused right now.

wad should i do?

wait? or leave?

~~maybe i should leave..~~

im juz feelin damn confused now.

~~fuck the world la.~~

Wednesday, May 11, 2005

ur exams hav finished..

but it seems all the same..

all still feel so distant..

when will i have you back into my arms?

i miss you like crazy.

i cant live a moment w/o thinkin of you.

i miss you very badly my lil piggy.

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

BEN AND JERRY'S ICE CREAM!!!!

i wan more!!!!!!!!

hehe..

probability!!!

so easy..i think..haha..=P

i miss u like crazy..

Monday, May 09, 2005

TENNIS!!!!

WOOHOO!!!!

IM IN A TENNIS MOOD!!!!

MUAHAHAHA!!

Saturday, May 07, 2005

im in a tennis mood!! haha..how cool is that..the last few weeks been playin tennis like mad durin recess, after school and free periods..haha..guess im gettin slightly better..yup. juz came hm from playin..guess wad..TENNIS..haha..went 2 rtc with alas..played with his dad and uncle. durin the warm up..all the shots i made..wah. haha. then played doubles..lost 1-6 4-6 though..but its alrite la..at least..I KNOW HOW TO SERVE PROPERLY ALRD!! hahahaha..lol. EGO BOOST!!! haha..rite.

i love u.

Wednesday, May 04, 2005

ur always on my mind..

thinking of you makes me different..

im never gonna leave ur side..

no matter what.

Tuesday, May 03, 2005

Untitled - Simple Plan

I open my eyes
I try to see but Im blinded by the white light
I cant remember how
I cant remember why
Im lying here tonight

And I cant stand the pain
And I cant make it go away
No I cant stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
Ive got no where to run
The night goes on
As Im fading away
Im sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybodys screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
Im slipping off the edge
Im hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I cant explain what happened
And I cant erase the things that Ive done
No I cant

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
Ive got no where to run
The night goes on
As Im fading away
Im sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes
Ive got no where to run
The night goes on
As Im fading away
Im sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

i feel so odd without you by my side.

its just not the same.

things seem so distant now. sighs.

i miss u so so much.

i wan u here in my arms.