i dunno wad 2 put as my title for my blog. lol

Wednesday, June 29, 2005

wad a sian day. had no school. but watched the notebook at home coz peter lent me the vcd. it was nice. damn nice. damn touching. really nice movie. really really nice. feel like watchin it again. haha.

damn sian bout dnt alrd. freakin waste time. put in so much effort. he say wth. i expected more. screw off la. im doin dnt for the a1..not to give u the recognition.

tmr goin back school. sian. damn lazy la.

natz is in 9 days for me. 100m. long jump. 4 by 1 relay.

i had a dream. dreamt that we were running in the 4 by 1 final. i was 2nd runner. in front of me was the whole of cedar. wth la..haha. dunno y the dream was like this oso. owells.

Monday, June 27, 2005

had extra trng 2day @ serangoon stadium after the 1st day of school. was damn sian. so went to the stadium with ferg and mark foo. once outside the stadium..i saw cedar ppl..i was like..sian. nvm. then some cj ppl were there alrd..then changed..haha..i went to the wrong side..last time the guys toilet was at the right side..but now change to left..then this cedar girl was givin me the 'wth r u doin here look' haha..then i went to the other side la. duh..haha..then did warm up..drills..then did a few starts with blocks..all tgt bout 10..40m..then did 40m starts on the curve..then did a 100m run on the curve..felt damn good for the 1st few starts on the straight. yup. damn nice feeling. trng started @ 3..ended @ 6..the longest trng i hav ever had i think. then took mrt back home with ferg.

had a dream tt the relay team made it to the finals..and i was the 2nd runner for the team. it was a damn nice feeling. i hope this dream can really come true.

i really really like u..

Sunday, June 26, 2005

sighs. goin back to school tmr alrd. damn. gotta do my dnt now. gonna hav lots of trngs the next 2 weeks. tmr @ serangoon stadium..tues, thurs and fri @ bishan. yup. natz in 2 weeks.

Saturday, June 25, 2005

ok..yest was kinda tirnin day..yupyup. had trng in the morn. did 4 40m sprint starts..then did 2 100m sprints..then did 1 200m tempo run. did all with peter. then thempo run with angie and peter. yup. i had a slight twitch on my old injury. shit. damn scared it comes back now..2 weeks b4 natz. sighs. better wear the strap when i run now. kinda fun runnin in the rain. haha. slightly heavier than a drizzle. yup. then went 2 macs to eat. then went 2 the airport coz eld came back from uk. met alas on the way there. then eld's dad sent me home. then later in the evenin when to town. met up with almost all the bb guys from my batch. yup. wayne, james, kenneth, morven..and even..j liew..hahaha. lol. went to play pool. then ate @ cafe cartel in cine. stayed till 1145..then went 2 my godparents place. then went to maxwel food court to eat porridge. haha. then came back home ard 2 plus. yup. then went to slp strg away. haha. nth much to blog bout alrd. kinda sian bloggin oso. dun think i'll be bloggin much anymore. gotta study and more trngs to go for. yup.

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

dunno wad i was thinkin abt yest. haiz..wads with me?? nvm.

wasted time in school 2day. haiz. only liked the time when we played tennis. haha. had maths. the freakin teacher not gd la. lower sec teacher. even ng hwee fern slightly better..hahaha. then recess played tennis..mr lau damn pissed..shouted from outside the class to the tennis courts..wth la. then went for physics prac..cldnt go in yet..coz we were all wet and stuff..haiz. then after tt went to play more tennis..then went opp school to cut hair..i like my hair!! hehe.. =P then after tt took bus home with alas and wen. yup. now im here. sighs. so sian. bored. dunno wad to do. haha. haiz.

shld i continue doin wad i wanna do or shld i stop before anythin worst happens??

sighs.

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

sometimes i really dunno wad im thinkin about. i juz saw the jesse mccartney mtv for she's no you..sometimes i juz wish tt when i walk past some place with this group of gd lookin girls..they will turn and look at me..y..why do i feel this way?? haha. weird. sigh.

wad if some day i became famous??

will i ever feel the same way im feeling rite now?

i dun think so..but i can get all the attention i want. sighs.

unlike now.

i sometimes really dunno wads goin thru my mind.

i guess i shld hav gotten over the past . i hope.

but as i try to start new with someone new..

its juz doesnt seem to work.

maybe its juz not time yet.

or even maybe its not the right person.

i know that i hav only got to know you for a very short time.

i juz hope now that we can really get to know each other better and become good frens.

juz be frens.

that is a i wish for now.

the bold words in the song juz keep passing thru my mind..

Jesse Mccartney - Why Don't You Kiss Her

We're the best of friends

And we share our secrets

She knows everything that is on my mind

But lately somethings changed

As I lie awake in my bed

A voice here inside my head

Softly says

Why don't you kiss her

Why don't you tell her

Why don't you let her see

The feelings that you hide

Cuz she'll never know

If you never show

The way u feel inside

Oh im so afraid to make that first move

Just a touch and we

Could cross the line

And everytime she's near

I wanna never let her go

Confess to her what my heart knows

Hold her close

Why don't you kiss her

Why don't you tell her

Why don't you let her see

The feelings that you hide

Cuz she'll never know

If you never show

The way u feel inside

What would she say

I wonder would she just turn away

Or would she promise me

That she's here to stay

It hurts me to wait

I keep asking myself

Why don't you kiss her

Why don't you tell her

Why don't you let her see

The feelings that you hide

Cuz she'll never know

If you never show

The way u feel inside

Why don't you kiss her (tell her you love her)

Why don't u tell her (tell her you need her)

Why don't you let her see

The feelings that you hide

Cuz she'll never know

If you never show

The way you feel inside...

Why don't you kiss her?

Sunday, June 19, 2005

oh my gosh. ive got no mood to do any work at all!! tts freakin bad!! i wanted to do my dnt..but i fel damn lazy to do it. why? sighs. i gotta wake up soon..the freakin prelims are in early aug after nat day!! sighs. i've gotta start doin my revisions!! i juz hope someone will come and remind me tt its impt to start doin it. sigh. i cant wake myself up. i always tell myself wad i wan to achieve..but..m i puttin in the effort to get it? sighs. i wanna go to tp's school of design and do interior design. but with the grades i hav now..can i get in?

i wanna make it to the natz semi's this yr..natz is juz 3 weeks away..m i puttin in enough effort to make it? no.

sighs.

nvm bout the natz semi's..its not v impt..but o's is. when will i realise tt its very impt and if i dun make it past this hurdle..i'll be no one..when will tt be? maybe when tt person whom i hav tt special feeling comes along and wakes me up from this slp..and remind me tt it is impt and keeps supportin me along the way?

maybe.

i hope tt it could be you. but will u take it? i dun think so.

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

sighs. wasted my time this morn. supposed 2 hav trng at ccab at 930. took mrt down to newton. came out of the station. it was rainin very heavily. sat at the bus stop for awhile to see whether the rain will get smaller. but it didnt. then went home after tt. wasted my time. cld have slpt longer la. haiz. feelin so slpy now. hehe. aiya..shall go play cm 5 now..hahaha.. =P

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

wasted my time goin to school 2day. went 2 "hand up" my folio..then go there..show him. he comment..then go off. wth. then he say so much la. say he expected me to do a lot better..haiz. pls la. i didnt know wad to do la. sigh. at least now i noe wad 2 do alrd la. yup. mark choo, max and charles were there oso. leonard damn funny. suppose 2 go for poa. but nv go. then he sit in the canteen dunno do wad. haha..then after eatin..came home. sighs. so borin. not in the mood to study at all. tts bad. damn bad.

shld i get to know her better?
maybe i shld.

Monday, June 13, 2005

wad a party yest..was kinda alrite la..but a lil borin in the end..ahahaha. =X met new and nice ppl there..like..er..hannah..aisha..and a few others la. yup. eliz, pauu, mel, elvis were there oso la..like duh la..haha. had drinks..was damn nice la..haha. I WANT MORE!!!!!!!!! haha. played dare and dare. i damn suay la..there were girls who got the bottle..but their dare had to hav a guy involved..then i suay la..get the bottle..hannah and weiting i think. yup. hannah was supposed 2 whisper somethin 2 me..then if i got wrong..got forfeit..i said wrongly..haiz. then in the end had 2 lick off choc fudge off her hand. haiz. then weiting. was made 2 kiss her neck. haiz. haha. the whole party was kinda alrite la..alas spent most of his time taking care of the kitten he gave mel as her prez. yup. left at ard 11pm. dad fetched me home.

then this morn had trng..felt tt i was ok after last nites drinks. then did warm up and drill..after tt..was supposed 2 do 4 sets of 3 40m sprints. 97-98%. so ya. 1st set did 2 100m and 2 40m..dunno y..haha. after tt..suddenly felt damn giddy and had a headache la. wth. then drank lots of water..after awhile was alrite alrd. so yup. then continued trng. owned peter..MUAHAHAHAHA. but he had a hip injury la..so. damn! haha. lol. then after tt went 2 macs..had a large normal coke..haha. with nothin else inside. damn. haha. nvm. then after tt walkin 2 the bus stop with gideon..then the bus was @ the traffic light and goin 2 the bus stop alrd. which was 150m away. then we both sprint like mad 2 get there la..hahaha..got on the bus in the end..haha. then @ the ccab bus stop..then cjc ppl were there..angie and her frens got on the bus. yup. then after tt went 2 raffles took 14 home. the freakin malay girls @ the back were damn noisy la. wth. then now im here. gotta do my dnt alrd. haiz.

Sunday, June 12, 2005

sighs. had my worst ever run tt day @ the mizuno wings..haiz. dun wanna blog bout it at all.

mel's bday 2day..HAPPY BDAY TO U!!! =) goin 2 her party later with alas..yup. shld be a real nice party yup.

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

wah..2days my most suay day!!! sigh. and wads with me and buses..haiz..1st..@ bugis..had trng..so ya..took bus down la..then saw eld there..wanted to take 170 to go ccab..ok..then freakin hell 5 960's passed by la..wth. then after the 5th one passed..170 then come..wth la..2nd time..after lunch @ macs with terry, peter and mark..went to the bus stop..wanted to take 171 then go raffles take 14 home..suddenly a 67 passed by..i could hav taken it la but damn long..so wait la..then 30 mins later 171 came..super pack..and it never stop at the bus stop. wth la. freakin hell make me wait so damn bloody long la. in the end still took 67 back..haiz. damn suay la 2day..haiz.

had trng this morn..went down..hmmm..its like natz juniors la..i go for 1 trng..then go comp alrd..haha..then tmr got wings..so ya. running 100m..relay not very sure la..nv train so long. so ya.had time trials..60m..finished 3rd..with 7.9s..tt bloody ashley won..peter got 2nd..beat me by 0.2s only..terry..dunno wad happ 2 him la..then after tt we did relay..did 3 times..was 3rd runner for the 1st 2 times..felt like i pushed like hell la..then last one..was 1st runner..damn tired for tt one la..yup. now my fitness damn low..haiz. nvm its ok..still got 1 month to natz..11 july..100m and long jump. yup. really hope i can make it to the semis..i noe it might be out of reach..but i will train like mad this whole month. i must make it to the semis//

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

long time since i blogged..went 4 camp..yup. had camp on fri..till yest..yup. paintball!!!! yeaa!!! headshot mr lai..haha..but he shot me in the leg..haha..mini aq..was station master..so kinda slack..=p slpt kinda alot of times..haha..like on the last day..slpt in the admin room when they were doin area cleanin..=P haha..kinda slack la the camp..every nite slpt @ ard 2am..yea..haha.. alrite la..then after camp..went 2 waffletown 2 eat..with dean, josh..and a few others la..cant really remem the rest..then went 2 my godparents place..left @ ard 11pm..

then 2day..went out with alas and eld..watched unleashed..@ bugis..yupyup. the movie was quite nice la ya..then went ard 2 look 4 mel's bday prez..yup. then went 2 town after the movie..bought mel's prez there..then walked ard cine coz didnt know wad 2 do..wanted 2 play arcade..but didnt..haha..then went down 2 subway..ate there..act outside the railings there..haha..then someone suddenly hit me wif a plastic bag..shaun tham..then ate finish alrd..then went home..eld and alas had 2 go 4 the mr and mrs smith preview there..so..sob..sighs..eld got 2 free tix la..so sian..alas helped him get somethin la..tts y he went..yupyup. act..wen asked me 2 go play tennis 2day @ mg..sry wen..

i guess the feelings are gone alrd..yup.

frens. only. nothin more.

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

haha..its the 1st 2day..hmmm. yup.

has nothin 2 do with me anymore.

wth.

y do i still think of it?

-shrugs-